mother and daughter

open quote I’ve been following the story of Brittany Maynard, a terminally ill 29yr old who decided to end her life under the “Death With Dignity” law. A lot of people have argued that it’s nothing short of suicide and a year ago I would have agreed.

My mom was recently diagnosed with Stage 4 Pancreatic Cancer. Like Brittany, she was also diagnosed with a life expectancy of just 6 months. Even before being diagnosed, I have watched my mom suffer so much. She’s in so much pain, she hardly sleeps. She literally is exhausted because she stays up days at a time. She’s taken so many pain killers that they don’t even work anymore. She has stopped eating because as soon as she eats, it makes her sick. All the vomiting has literally eaten up her stomach lining inside. She’s lost so much weight, she’s almost a skeleton. These are the things that are breaking my heart. Not so much that’s she’s dying, as watching her suffer.

We’ve had a second opinion and a third opinion and the prognosis was all the same. My mom doesn’t have a chance at life. She is going to leave this earth soon. I was in denial the first month or so believing that God will heal my mom. That some how God will hear my prayers and perform a miracle for my family. I’ve given up all hope of a miracle and have accepted my mom’s terminal illness for what it is.

The Christian part of me knows that suicide is never okay, but the daughter part of me would rather see my mom die peacefully, rather than suffer. Even if it means ending her own life.

The way I see it is God ended my mom’s life when she was diagnosed with this horrible disease.

Don’t get me wrong. I haven’t turned my back on God. I’m thankful for the time He’s allowed me with my mom. In fact, this illness has drawn me closer to Him more than ever, but my question is… Does God want my mom to suffer like this (or anyone for that matter)? I don’t think so.

Please tell me how this is any different from taking a loved one off of Life Support?

Please pray for my mom to transition peacefully.

Please pray for my family. May God comfort them.

Please pray that God somehow answers my prayers. closed quote

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  • GraceAndTruth

    I’m so sorry about your mum.
    I won’t comment on assisted suicide but I will comment on the reasoning you mentioned in your article.
    You stated what you preferred and assumed that God would want the same thing.
    You being okay with something isn’t a good measure of whether God is okay with it too.
    We are supposed to base what we will call wrong and right based on what God says, not base what we think God will call right based on what we prefer.
    If you don’t like WHAT God has to say or you don’t think it’s fair (I’m not in anyway implying that it’s okay for us to judge the only righteous judge when He’s God and we are not but the fact is we do) then take it up with Him.
    God is under no obligation to explain Himself to His creation but He often does it anyway because He’s gracious like that. He says call to Him and He’ll answer and showing us many things we had no idea about. He invites us and him to reason TOGETHER. Step by step, precept by precept.
    If on the other hand He chooses not to explain Himself to you, He will give you peace.
    Praying for you
    😘