Hello all… I am in a very hard place right now. My husband and myself have been married for almost 8 years now. He has a daughter from a previous relationship, but we have no children together. When we first met, we did have the baby talk and we both decided that we would wait to start a family and not rush into it. I finished school, He finished school, and 5 years later we are still babyless. The only difference now is that I’m so ready and he’s still not ready. Every time I bring it up, it’s an argument. We both have careers, we own a home, and we’ve accomplished everything we said we wanted to accomplish before having kids. I’m starting to feel as though he will never be ready. I’m 32 and he’s 34. We’re not getting any younger. It just makes me sad because there is nothing I wouldn’t do for my husband. When he’s happy, I’m happy. It hurts me that he doesn’t feel the same way. I was on birth control in the beginning of our marriage, but still ended up getting pregnant. He made me get an abortion because we were both still in school, living with his parents at the time, and not financially able to take care of a child. I’m not proud of this at all, and to this day…I still pray daily and ask God for forgiveness. Not to mention he accused me of getting pregnant on purpose and lying to him about being on birth control. He even threatened divorce if I didn’t terminate the pregnancy. After the abortion, he decided that it was best to use condoms instead of risking another unplanned pregnancy. I feel like a nobody to my own husband. Everyone thinks we have the perfect marriage, but I’m really dying inside. Should I be forced to give up my desire to be a mother? Am I overreacting? How long should I have to wait? These are all questions that run through my head everyday all day. Please Please Please say a prayer that God will soften my husband’s heart. I know it’s going to take a miracle, but if anybody can do it, I know God can!
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