By: Mike

Mike — Sat, 30 Jan 2021 15:50:44 +0000

I came across this article while asking God to help me with my issues of pride. I realize this is a platform geared towards women, but this title quickly caught my attention. Admittedly, I just quickly went through the headlines, thinking, “yeah, that all sounds about right” and then went on to searching something else. But something told me to go back and read it. All of this is what I’m dealing with, and have been for some time. No. 5 is the one that really got me though. I don’t feel worthy of God’s grace. You see, about a decade ago, I had an experience with God that changed my entire spiritual walk. I went from just being a “believer” to being a “follower”. I walked very closely with God. I even had the amazing opportunity to pastor a church for three years. Then the waters got rough and some really bad things happened. Through all of that, I made some really bad decisions. Decisions that severely damaged my walk with God. At one point I even asked God about something. He gave me the answer and I pretty much said “no”. That really started a downward spiral and the last couple years I feel like God has just left me, or rather, I have rejected Him so much that I’m beyond hope. It’s been very debilitating. Constantly questioning the validity of my own salvation. So where this issue of pride comes in is twofold. In a sense, I’ve lost trust in the fact that Jesus’ death and resurrection is enough for me. I believe it’s there for others but not for me. When I fell, I fell hard and my mindset has been one of, “this shouldn’t have happened”, “you’re supposed to be a Christian”, “you were a pastor”, and thoughts like that just took over. That lead to the second part of this in which I started to (and still do) try to earn God’s forgiveness. Like I’m telling God, “you shouldn’t have to clean this/me up”. So here’s where I am. Intellectually, I know the right answers. I know what God’s Word says. I just can’t seem to get that knowledge from my head to my heart and just like this article says, it’s blocking me from experiencing God the way I know He wants me to. So many times I have felt like giving up. But I keep praying. I keep seeking. Hoping that one day the light will come back on. We are taught that the worst thing about hell is that it is a Christ-less eternity. I can tell you, that if the feeling that God is completely gone from your life is even remotely close to that, I can’t imagine what an eternity of that is like. I love God, imperfectly as it may be. I want to honor Him with my life, but I keep wanting to on my own terms and in my own power. Jesus said, “if you love Me, you’ll obey my commands”. So how can I say I love Him when I can’t even follow a simple command just to trust Him? I apologize for such a long post. If anything, I hope and pray that someone else struggling with their relationship with God will read this and find solace in the fact that they are not alone.

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By: Marilyn Anthony

Marilyn Anthony — Thu, 13 Apr 2017 02:51:25 +0000

Heleyna Margret

By: Donna Frazier

Donna Frazier — Thu, 13 Apr 2017 01:46:56 +0000

Amen

By: Valerie Dearborn

Valerie Dearborn — Wed, 12 Apr 2017 23:32:06 +0000

In reply to Valerie Dearborn. Correction-him not them.

By: Kris Vance

Kris Vance — Wed, 12 Apr 2017 18:34:50 +0000

I am not sure if this is pride or just not having peers look at me with open eyes, understanding, and know I can do with my hands as God has given me this gift though I may not be sufficient enough for MAN and its laws.

By: Mary Kahoro

Mary Kahoro — Wed, 12 Apr 2017 18:34:21 +0000

Sure

By: Gloria Ampong

Gloria Ampong — Wed, 12 Apr 2017 18:34:07 +0000

Yen

By: Winnie Calvert

Winnie Calvert — Wed, 12 Apr 2017 18:26:53 +0000