By: Alana

Alana — Thu, 16 Jun 2016 23:49:00 +0000

I love this article and it is exactly what I’ve been trying to do lately and been feeling is the right thing to do. I am happy that it has reinforced my confidence and the Holy Spirit I have been feeling from doing exactly these things lately. However I am still a little confused and unsure about what to do in regards to a specific person. My fiance and I have been going through alot of issues and trying to make decisions as to whether or not we are still right for eachother. The love is there and the happiness but when we fight it’s pretty nasty. I have been practicing these steps lately and not exploding with anger or allowing what I feel are wrongs to ruin my health and my mood. But at the same time although I feel better for it I am unsure if I can keep forgiving and continue a relationship or if I should let go of our relationship and be able to be more forgiving and find peace. I am unsure because he is also becoming a better person and we are both on this journey of turning to God, yet he is still doing things and saying things that I feel are extremely disrespectful and hard to forgive for me. I do pray for God to guide me but I sometimes lose focus and instead focus on my fiance, sometimes that is a good thing and we are just speaking nicely and happily and sometimes it means I am only stressing and worrying over the wrong I feel he’s done again. Some things he has changed and stopped doing and other things he won’t change at all. Sometimes I feel like I am being manipulated and controlled by him and it makes me very unhappy and resentful and not want to give him the love I have but then I don’t want to give up the good times and happy parts and I miss him and obsess about him when we are apart and fighting. I feel like I have so many insecurities and trust issues and I’m tired of that. Am I ignoring God’s signs to me?

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By: Alana