Trust in the LORD and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart. – Psalm 37:3-4
I found myself asking God for so many things. God make me a writer. God prepare me to be a wife. God just do something.
Here I was constantly asking God to do things, but what was I doing?
God keeps His word. His promises do not manifest in our time, but they manifest in a moment that couldn’t be better crafted by anyone but the creator himself.
So, if I know God is going to do His part, then why am I not doing my part?
This question really hit me, when I asked God to prepare me to be a wife, and when things didn’t seem to be working out the way I wanted, God showed me that I was not doing my part.
Instead of being completely confident in what I was praying for, I was doing the total opposite of what I asked God for.
I asked God to be a wife, but I was still engaging in premarital sex, I was entertaining guys who were not going to be my husband, I wasn’t spending enough time with God and I was acting out of a broken heart.
Long story short, I was not giving God the time and space to prepare me. I was just passing the time, until I figured God would send my husband.
My actions were doing everything, but moving me in a direction of growth. I was settling for quick fixes and trying to temporarily fill voids. I was trying to just make all kinds of unhealthy relationships work, and neglecting my relationship with God.
I realized I would keep delaying my time to be a wife with my behavior.
Did I really believe God for his promise, because if I did, I would be carrying myself more confidently. I would be so confident that I wouldn’t settle for anything less than what I knew He would do for me, even if I couldn’t see the future.
Knowing that God will do His part should make it easier for me to say no to guys that I know are not even close to being my husband. Trusting His promise should make it easier for me to just spend time with God, because the more time I spend with Him, the better I become for my future husband.
Knowing that God will do His part should only propel us to change. We should be so engulfed in this change that we neglect our desires and be content with God’s path to the promise.
Trusting God is an action. It is more than just believing. It is actively walking towards the Christ.
I am not a wife yet, but I am a better woman today, because I traded my desires for God’s path, and it is so much more rewarding.