When I was 16, my parents made me get an abortion. Then a few years ago, I had an abortion because I was afraid of letting my family down once again. I’m the oldest of 4 siblings and they all look up to me. Not to mention, My parents would have been so disappointed in me for having a child out of wedlock. Now I’m happily married to the man of my dreams. I love him so much. We have been married for a little over a year now. We have been trying to have a child together but now I am unable to get pregnant. It hurts to know that my past actions may keep me from giving my husband the one thing every woman wants to give her husband. This could really hurt my marriage. Yes I know there’s always adoption, but I want a child of my own, my own flesh and blood and we can’t afford in vitro fertilization. They say God never pays us back for our sins, but lately I just don’t know. Is God Paying Me Back For Having An Abortion? I have been praying that He shows me a little mercy because I truly regret some of the things I have done in the past. Please keep my marriage in your prayers. I want this more than anything.