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Trying to Get Back To The Old Me… The Old Us


I am in need of desperate prayers. My husband is an aspiring actor. He’s passionate about what he does. Problem is, it doesn’t pay the bills. I have stuck by his side, supported his dream, and picked up the slack for our kids for 5 years now, and I’m tired. When is enough enough? My husband hasn’t had a full time in 5 years. Only little acting gigs here and there, but nothing that we can depend on. Right now, we are so backed up in our bills, my car will be repossessed any day now. I’m trying very hard to be a submissive wife, but it’s hard when you’re the only one putting food on the table and providing for your kids.

Last week, I finally spoke up and told my husband how I felt, thinking he would understand and at least try to help out. It was a disaster. He basically told me that when he finally makes it big, he’s going to leave me and I’m going to wish I had supported him. But what about the 5 years I was supportive? Do I get any credit for that? He spends all day looking for acting gigs that don’t pay much. He’s at home most days (unless he gets an audition), But yet I still have to pay for childcare. Money we don’t have.

He tells me that most of his family and friends who are in the entertainment business went through the same thing with their wives or girlfriends when they first started and I would regret it if I walked away from him. I am asking for God to perform a miracle with my husband. I love him and I don’t want to lose him, but I need my husband to step up to the plate and be a man. I’m trying to get back to the old me (the happy me). The old happy us! Is that too much to ask for?

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