Years ago, I had a vision that I was going to marry a Pastor and become a First Lady. However, in the vision I couldn’t see the man’s face only myself in a church. I don’t know how I even came to the fact that I was a First Lady. I just felt it and I rejected it immediately.
During this time my life was a downward spiral. I lost EVERYTHING. I asked God Why? I still didn’t hear Him. I couldn’t feel the Holy Spirit. I cried out “Where are you?
I began to pray. I prayed some more. I cried. I looked at the life of Job. Everything was stripped away. I kept thinking about my hometown and all the violence. I felt like I was being pulled back home but I was resisting the pull. I refused to move back. Even when my mom became very sick, I still resisted. Instead of moving back home I decided to travel back and forth. I thought to myself, “I can commute, it’s only 1 ½ hour drive each way”.
I kept being reminded of Jeremiah 29:11” For I know the plans I have for you, they are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope”. This scripture followed me. I couldn’t understand why. Even though I thought that I could take care of mom and commute, God didn’t want that for me. He sent me right home to live with my mom.
After moving back home, one Sunday I walked in church like I normally do. During offering a woman approached me and introduced herself. She walked back to me and said, “You’re so beautiful. Do you know how beautiful you are? ” . I didn’t know how to respond other than “Thank you”. I couldn’t believe she didn’t see my brokenness. Instead she saw my spirit.
After service, I waited in line to say “Hi” to the pastor. I was going to just walk out but I didn’t since I was visiting why be rude. I was contemplating getting out of line and that’s when I caught his eye and he said “wait”.
I’m now next, he says “Hi, so you’re in town”. I respond, “Hi, no I just moved back home”. The subject changes to something else. Then I leave.
Days later, I asked God if this was what He showed me. Was this the man in my vision? Is this man my husband? EVERYTIME I asked my phone would ring and it was him, my new friend (the pastor). I wasn’t ready for this, but I left it in His hands.
While dating, we talked about engagement. November 1, 2015, we were officially engaged. We didn’t see a need to wait. We knew that God brought us together.
November 21, 2015, we became one. We planned our wedding in twenty days. It was a beautiful day. I never imagined this is what God had planned for my life.
This period of my life was rough. It lasted for five years and the last year was the roughest. I felt broken, I lost it all and I thought I would lose my mind, but it was all for my good. All apart of God’s plan. Hebrew 11:1 teaches us “faith is being sure of what we hope for, being convinced of what we do not see.” I had to have faith.
My storm is over. The next one will come again, but I will be better equipped for the battle. One thing I would like to share with you is that when we are in the midst of our storm we must remember that no matter how long we are there God is in the midst of it all.