My heart is aching so bad right now. I’m still in shock. Can’t stop crying. I have been praying for 5 years for “the one”. I was beginning to think I was going to spend the rest of my life alone. I met someone about 3 months ago and everything is going well so far. I mean really well! We talked about marriage and even agreed that we would try to practice abstinence until or if we get married. He’s a Christian and basically everything I’ve been praying for. Well, Thursday I volunteered to accompany my best friend to get tested for HIV (long story). She was negative and to my surprise I was positive. I was only going for morrow support. I had no idea that I was infected. I can only think of one person that I may have contracted it from. I want to reach out to him and ask if he’s been tested, but I don’t have the strength and part of me doesn’t want to hear the answer because I am still in denial. I keep telling myself that this can’t be true. It has to be a mistake. Now my whole life is over. God really has perfect timing (sarcasm). I finally meet the man of my dreams and now this! Please pray for me. I’m really feeling like ending it all.
Please, Please, Please say a prayer for this young lady. Encouraging words are welcome.