“And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me”. -2 Corinthians 12:9
I have yet to experience the joy of what it feels like to have a life growing on the inside of me, nor feel the first kick of a baby in my womb, nor am I aware of what it sounds like to have someone call me “mommy”, and I have yet to see my husband eyes light up when I announce pregnancy news. However, I have been intimately exposed to morning sickness only caused by pre-menstrual symptoms, felt the mental pain of a chemical pregnancy then very early miscarriage, I’ve seen the sadness in my friends and family eyes when they notice it’s “that time of the month” again. I have seen my husband’s eyes light up when he hugs our precious god-son, and then felt his pain as his eyes for a second lingered in longing for our yet conceived child. I’ve felt anger, jealously, bitterness, sadness, but joy, happiness, and elatedness’ when another friend announced their baby news. Nevertheless, regardless of how I feel I choose to not allow feelings nor negative emotions rule my actions.
Temporary barrenness, or waiting for God to bless us with a child are constant reminders of however the more we must depend on Jesus. As Paul so eloquently realized, God is our strength in times of weakness. Yes God has the power to give us children, but he wants us to fully depend on Him. It’s not always easy but we know that we must allow God to illustrate his strength through our weaknesses. Let’s read 2 Corinthians 12:9 it says, “And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me”. See how it perfectly illustrates that we have limitations but our Savior does not. These limits keep us humble & remind us that Jesus is in control. Ask God for more grace, which is His strength, power and ability working in and through you daily. Only through Him do you have the ability & strength to get through the difficult times.
Faith is not based on our feelings but on the rock (Jesus) His promises and his Truth. Thou your heart at times is overwhelmed, depend on HIM, trust HIM; doing so will lead you to that place that is higher than your feelings and circumstance. A place of peace-filled faith, a place of joy and rest.
Jesus, thank for being the rock that is higher than the trials, tests, and struggles; Thank you Father for knowing what we need when we need it. Holy Spirit we need help getting past where are now. Lord forgive us for being anxious or impatient, forgive us for worrying, forgive us even for having the wrong attitude during this journey. Help us, we are weak in areas of our lives and we want to have faith that doesn’t waver. Give us belief that is not based on what we see in the natural. Jesus I believe that you will give us the strength as you did Sarah, the strength to conceive. Help my husband and me during the process of waiting, teach us how to encourage each other. Let this be a time that we grow in faith together, not a time that we grow apart. But a time that we both realize that you hear our cries, that you attend to our prayers therefore we will trust you and be anxious for nothing. Give us joy, peace, and rest.