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Finding The Right One at The Wrong Time

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I have been going through a separation and divorce for the past 2.5 years. It’s been an incredibly long and painful journey. I have come to terms with the divorce and I truly believe that it’s the right thing for myself and my children. The divorce is still not final. I am still legally married. I have been praying for a Godly man to come into my life. I want my children to see what a happy and loving relationship is. I want and need a partner and a spiritual man in my life. I have been very much alone for years. Much longer than the 2.5 years that my ex husband has been moved out. I was alone even when he lived here. I FEEL DIVORCED. Spiritually and emotionally and mentally, I feel like it’s time for me to move on. Legally, I cannot. A few months ago, an acquaintance and I struck up a conversation. He had been separated from his marriage for 8 months. They were filing for divorce. Over the next month, we started talking a lot about divorce and what we had both been through and then soon we were talking about what we both want out of life. He is a good man, a Christian man, who’s values and morals and wants in life match with mine. He is exactly what I have been praying for. And to top it all off, we are very attracted to each other. We have been “involved” for the last 3 months now. We are very close. We have strong feelings for one another but we are still keeping up walls because of the situation. His divorce is a few months away from being final. I still have NO idea of how much longer it will be before mine is final. Obviously this has led to confusing feelings for both of us. We go from wanting to be a “couple” to needing distance. We are scared to get too close, but we also want to be together. Living in this limbo land seems like it will last forever. Part of me feels like I should stop the relationship where it is until we are both free legally to move forward. But I don’t want to do that. This relationship has been so good for me. We pray together. We sing praises together. We have a connection through God that I have never experienced with anyone before. I truly feel that God placed him in my life for a purpose and vice versa . My question is….why would God bring this person into my life….and why would everything be exactly what I have been praying for…when the timing is still so incredibly wrong?

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