Fighting To Keep My Promise To God

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Hello, I Am a 22 year old young woman that s struggling with being CONSISTENT in my vow of celibacy until MARRIAGE. During my teenage years I was very promiscuous. I had many sexual partners, and engaged in all types of illicit sexual activities. I was wild and sometimes didn’t make the best decisions about who I slept with and I didn’t always use protection. 2 abortions and sexually transmitted diseases later, I began to examine my sexual habits and appetite for lust. In 2011 after my sexual partner of 2 years scared me into thinking I had HIV, I got tested and by the GRACE, MERCY, AND POWER of God I was HIV Negative! I felt this was God giving me a second chance at life, love, and reputation. on that January day in 2013 on the floor on the bathroom floor of the neighborhood clinic’s office I got down on my knees and thanked God For this gift of life! I vowed that I was going to stay celibate until marriage and that I would devote my life to paying this amazing gift forward in the glory of His name and power. Since that day in January I have had sex multiple times and with different men. I have repented each time and asked for mercy but, I am still failing God. I am depressed, and living in disappointment. I am just tired of giving into my flesh I want to stop fornicating but, I just think there is something wrong with me. I don’t know how to stop! Sex is my devil and I know that if I don’t stop it will be the death of me and cripple all of my goals. Please Help Me Ladies!!!! Prayers and advice please.

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You will be tempted. You may even fall back into sin sometime. But don’t let that define you. Each time you fail, run into your Father’s arms, ask his forgiveness and know that he is faithful to forgive your sins and cleanse you of all unrighteousness as the Bible says. Next, satan will whisper in your ear that you are a hopeless sinner and you are too bad to be forgiven. You shout back at him that you already told God about it and you are sticking with your plan to go forth and sin no more. You are not… Read more »