Sometimes what we think is love is not really love at all. Have you ever prayed about a relationship you wanted God’s blessing on just as thoughts of you in your custom made wedding dress started swirling in your head? …but God answered your prayer by showing you that this person was not God approved? You may think, “But God, I loveeeeee him!”… but do you really? That magical feeling when your eyes meet and you think that this must be the real thing is indescribable. Are you really falling in love? Sometimes we are just in love with the…

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Give me your heart, And let your eyes observe my ways. – Proverbs 23:26 What does it exactly mean when we are on the fence about something? It means that we are unsure, we hesitate and we go back and forth about making a definite decision. The same thing happens when we do this with God. I would know, because I did it for many years as I went back and forth to God, but never fully surrendered to Him. For years, anytime that something went terribly wrong, I would pray my hardest and ask God to help me. Once…

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We’d reached the frayed edges of autumn, where flurries told us winter had come, and yet the calendar told us the winter solstice was not yet upon us. I pushed my aching body down the road in my weekend routine of a long jog down the dusty roads, and the black dog with pointing ears came at me so hard I screamed in an angry and primal way. I wondered if our long chain of unfortunate events might culminate with an attack from a defensive German shepherd. I questioned whether I should have stayed inside and exercised on the elliptical…

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I was lugging my medium-sized purse, filled with panty liners and lip gloss. Over the other shoulder, hanged my work-bag, overstuffed with my laptop and papers still in need of grading. Both of my hands were carrying a crate, that also encompassed my lunch-bag, now empty bowls from lunch, along with my water bottles and coffee mug from the day. With all these things weighing me down, I motioned for my colleague to hold the elevator for me. I was struggling because I was just carrying too much. I was going home to unload. “Wow,you’re carrying a lot of stuff!”…

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Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him. – Psalm 37:7 There were two awful forms of punishment I hated in elementary school: the ruler and nap time. It was the worst thing to hear a teacher say, “Put your heads on the desks!” I could never understand why in the world anyone would want to take a nap when there was so much to do and say! Those words, “Put your heads on the desks” always came at the time when I had something so crucial to say to my friends; usually in relations to a cartoon I…

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